27 October, 2006

Two months later...

They say that in art, one must know how to paint, how to mould clay, or how to wield the blade to create one’s latest piece. That being said, people often forget that one must also know when to stop, when said piece is finished and done.

There’s always something that can be improved on, something that tugs at you saying “this isn’t quite right!” After some time though, “fixing” things loses its point, and worse, you run the risk of making the piece look overworked.

It’s as if you tried too hard. Ever seen those girls on the street with overdone makeup? It’s like that. Less is more sometimes.

There are plenty of other places this idea can be applied to elsewhere in life, in work, in love. The trick is finding that spot of balance and harmony, and I’ve always tried to live up to that principle.

Anyway, I digress.

The point is, sometimes, it is just time to let go. I know my last two posts have contradicted one another, but as time goes on, I feel that maybe my FFXI career really is good and done.

Were there goals in-game that I wish I could’ve completed? Plenty. But given the vast world that is Vana’diel, trying to accomplish everything is too much.

My last post was inspired by a spark of inspiration, an idea that I thought held promise which I could develop. It sounded like such a good idea at the time, but when it came down to things and I did my research, alas, the signs were all “no-go.”

And “no-go” it was.

Given my capriciousness over the last couple months, I don’t really want to say for sure whether this will be my final goodbye, or whether I will ever return to Vana’diel. Things move on, and as the toils of real life throws more and more stuff at me (and believe me, life is throwing two very big monkey wrenches at me at the moment), I’ve come to realize that really, perhaps it’s time to just draw a close to this chapter and start working on the next.

You can probably guess from my tone that prospects of my return are rather bleak (*cough* emo *cough*), and should I never return, then so be it. I have fond memories of Vana’diel and really, that’s good enough for me.

I still read people’s blogs from time to time (although I really wish some of you would update more!). It’s nice to see how other people are doing, even though I am no longer part of the same experience.

In about three weeks, my Content ID will expire and if what SquareEnix says really is true, then Tuufless will be deleted, and things will finally have some closure.

On a final note, sometimes I can’t help but wonder what it was in-game that finally did it for me. Most of us have that one big goal that we look at and say, “When I get this done, I can quit the game, happy.” It’s funny that oftentimes you don’t really know what said goal actually is until you complete it. I, for example had big dreams of my own- solo Charybdis, get all the good gear from Assaults, complete CoP, explore all the kooky campsites across Vana’diel…

…But in the end? Maybe I should just have never gotten that hat. ^^

P.S: Oh, and as for that project I was working on? It’s finally completed to the point where I feel it is ready for public consumption. Check it out here.